I just came back from Church camp. I was a very meaningful one, I have learned so much and God has made me realized so many things from it.Firstly, God answered my prayer about my self inferiority. I realized that my self concept was so low, I am not good at many things, I feel so lousy about myself. How I wish I had some of talents that my friends had. How I wish I can do excel in everything. Yet Jesus keep reminding me how much He loves me, that I am so wonderfully made and God didn't made us to be weak. In Dr Liu's last sermon, he said that we should not compare ourselves with other people, instead, we should admire and give thanks for their gifting. All we have to do is rely on God's strength to help us do all things. In Philippians4:13, it says I can do everything through Him who gives me Strength. This verse has been my motivation, but sadly my faith isn't strong enough to rely on Him fully. I am still praying for spiritual gifts, especially the gift of evangelism which I am weakest at. I can now proudly say that I am unique and I can do all things through God's love and strength!
Secondly, during the last Sunday school, pastor Wong told us to see the hope, joy, and crowns of the people around me. ( 1Thess 2:19) I have never thought of it at all. When we learned to see these things in other people, we will appreciate them more. Its easy to magnify the flaws of the people around me, once in a while I will think of their strength and thank God for it, but never did I thought of the joy, hope and crowns in the people around me! The first person that came into my mind was Rinnah haha. Hmm, I could see all these three things in her, but only on the surface, I have not given any thoughts before this. In the camp, I manage to identify them in Kai Xin. I saw her how much she cares for people around her, she help us take care of our passport and meal voucher, I admire how she is able to place God as priority regardless of the circumstances. I thank God for having such as great sister in Christ like the both of them:)
Thirdly, I enjoyed the fellowship! I didn't enjoyed myself at all the previous camp, I still felt that I am ostracized by the church. This year's camp was total opposite. Perhaps, it's because we all have better understanding of each other throughout the past 2 years. Its feels great to simply smile at each other or greet each other regardless of whether we know them or not. Though I am still prefer the fellowship that I had in nav, but I thank God for placing me in SAC whereby I have to learn to love and serve others. :)
