O Lord, You have searched me

and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my

lying down;

You are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

You have laid Your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for

me.

too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your

presence?

If I go up to heavens, You are

there;

if I make my bed in the depths, You

are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn,

if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me,

Your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say,"Surely the darkness will

hide me

and the light become night around

me,

even the darkness will not be dark to

You;

the night will shine like the day,

for darkness is as light to you.

For You created my inmost being;

You knit me together in my mother's

womb.

I praise You because I am fearfully

and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

Psalm 139:1-14

This is God's love for us.

The future seems bleak... I had no idea where the Lord wants to place me in the future. In just a few more months I will be graduating.Where shall I go?What shall I do?Going to Australia to further my studies seems to be the best option, and I really want to go. I want to gain exposure, I want to meet new people, but most importantly, I want to learn to be independent and dependent on God fully. I want to put my trust on Him, lean on Him, rely on Him for I know that He will lead me through.But if given the chance, I would want to stay in Singapore and go to SMU. I want to take care of my old parents, who loved me so much and has given everything to me.

So what's next after Uni? To follow my parents desire to teach? I want to become a teacher too... that has been my dreams since young. But thats not where my spiritual gift is. If I don't become a teacher, I would like to work in a charity organisation, to care for those who are in needs. The pay may be low, but thats what I really enjoy...

My mum has provided me everything for me to do well with a bright future.She has spent so much time on me, teaching and guiding me in my preparation for my exams. She is never stingy to hire so many tutors to brush up on my weaker subjects. She always makes sure that I have extra, if not enough money to spend. She always pray for me, be it for my studies or for other areas. She loves me so much , and has given me so much, therefore, I want to honour her with good results. She is so old already, I pray that the Lord will preserve her and protect her, I cannot imagine a day without her... Even though she nags at me, even though she scold me sometimes, but she cares for me so much. I love her and respect her with all my hearts... My mum is the best mum ever. She is not only my mum, she is my best friend, someone whom I can confide all my secrets with without having to fear that she will judge me or tell others about it.

Looking back, the Lord has been so awesome to me! He listens to every prayer of mine. He bless me with good friends, safe place for me to stay. He always protects me from all harm and guided me through my all trails and tests. How can I ask for more? How can I be defeated by self-inferiority when He is my strength? I just pray that the Lord will show me a way, bless me with gifts and bless the people around me...