Why am I so overwhelmed about where to serve the Lord in the future for the past few weeks?I want to do things my own way, I want to be a wonder women to handling all things nicely,but I have my limitations.Furthermore,I do not know where I am heading, its like I am split into three.One third of me is at nav, the other one third is studying and the other one third is in church.What is there to be so anxious about really?I have been thinking hard about this and I realised that it doesn't matter where am I serving, so long as I am following what God wants me to do is all that matters.If God wants me to serve in church and focus in church, I will follow, if God wants me to serve in nav and I will puts in every efforts into it.Therefore, I shall commit it to the Lord :) For now, I will try to cope with it, but studies is still my first priority.I am still glorifying God by studying hard.Ha I am happy now, after I have lifted this huge burden off me :)

God once again showed me that He is in control of everything...Pastor Wong informed me that I will be serving in yiyuji, dealing with the small kids.Ah I am so happy now, although this was my second choice, but I am more than willing to serve in the kiddo ministry than the youth ministry which is my first choice.It seems like my height and high pitched voice will come handly in future:)I shall do my best and obey God:)

The year 2011 has started not too long ago and I am feeling so overwhelmed... The word'serving' seems to be the big thing for me in 2011. On top of my busy school routine, I am involved in the labourer training programme for Nav and I also became a member of the newly formed fellowship 小组, both requires extra commitments, which means that my weekends are officially gone.In addition, both will teach me the true meaning of serving the Lord and the people. Mum seems very anxious and perturbed by this.She is worried that I will not be able to cope with my studies given that I will spend less time studying during the weekends.I understand and shares the same concerns as her,but didn't I managed to prove that I can manage it even during last's year's common test where I am equally busy with serving?Without God's guidance and grace,I will never be where I am today. With my low IQ and low ability I will never do well by my own effort, it HIS guidance that made do me well ...

I shared my dilemma with cousin Grace today, 'what is your motives of doing all these?'she asked.I have never thought of why I am I serving the Lord.I just enjoy serving the Lord, I want to glorify Him by serving Him.Grace said that I may need to give up on something.I am not willing to give up on anything as for now.Nav is a blessing for me, I really enjoy the fellowship with the people there although I have only been there for a year plus.Every week I look forward to Saturday the most because of Nav, I had learned so much over there, I enjoy being with the people there, I enjoy studying there, playing games, and even cleaning the area. How can I then give up on being with that bunch of awesome brothers and sisters at Nav?

As for church, I have been there throughout my whole life;it has become a habit of going there every Sunday.I have learned a lot there, I desire to serve in church in the futureif it is God's willing.


I am still seeking for His way, I don't know which areas does God wants me to serve?I don't know what is His plan for me... I am unwilling to give up on neither of them as for now, I want to cope with everything, but I can't because of my limitations... At the end of the day, I will still have to obey the Lord even if He tell me to give up on something.I pray that I will find a balance between those three through His guidace...